Looking Back....

A year ago today, my water broke while I was watching an episode of Kendra (don't judge) and blowing my nose lol. I woke uo with a horrible cold and when my husband was leaving to work I jokingly said "I'll be calling you later to come home from work." I had no idea Gabriella was going to make an appearance. I was still only 2 cm dialated so I thought she would come on or after her due date. I called my husband and told him not to even come home we still has hours to go. I was in no pain and didn't feel any of my contractions. I then called my mom who of course was ready to leave work right then and there. I called my doctor and they told me to go in so after a shower, make-up, hair and a quick text to my sis I was off to the hospital with my tissue box in hand.

Once we got there I was in the waiting room for about an hour. I think they forgot about me until I went to the nurses' station and was like "hello, I am leaking here!" That caught their attention. I have to say my nurses were FANTASTIC, especially Kristen. I could not have asked for a more patient, kind and sweet person to be therethat night. Of course I had my support team of my husband and mom who decided to eat chocolate in front of me when I could not eat lol. However, Kristen was there to the rescue with some frozen pops and ice chips. After about an hour and a half of pitocin (since I was not progressing) the contractions came and they came hard! I can remember it like was yesterday! While the pain was excruciating, I loved every minute of labor and 17 hours later, my princess was in my arms.

So as I type this and look back, I am looking at my baby girl feeding herself some toast with applesauce all while offering me a bite. Today will be mommy and Gabby cuddling day (after some errands of course). I want to cherish every last minute with her as an "infant" before her 1st birthday.

Somber

What a depressing word eh? Even though this is my first post back since January (I think), that is the word that most fittingly describes how I am feeling. I want to say that I don't know what it is that eating me up inside, but I know and I am not brave enough to say. I will say that it is not just one thing; it is an accumulation of a few.....maybe one day I will be brave.

On another note, my baby girl is a few weeks away from turning 1 year old. I can not believe it! This year has flown by so fast and when I close my eyes, I am right back in that hospital room reliving every second I could stuff into my memory. She is just amazing and I have been blessed a million times over! She is learning so much and exploring every thing she can get her little dimpled fingered hands into.

We recently came back from Miami, Florida and oh how I loved it so.I am still trying to convince my husband that we should move! My family can definitely benefit from moving out of this city. How did Gabby adjust? Please, Miami wasn't ready for the diva! She loved it and it loved her back!